Depression

Depression! It is soo not a nice feeling. During May 5, my friends and I went to WVSU to get our NAT results. We were excited and nervous at the same time. We really want to be accepted in this school because it is one of the best schools in western Visayas and it also cheap which can really help my family in our financial problems.
I was hoping, hoping, hoping that I could be qualified for the interview. Well, yeah we passed the NAT all of us got high average, above average, and excellent but only the top 200 students are only qualified and unfortunately I'm not one of the top 200. At first it was just oh ok, i did not get in I still got in to other schools anyway. But as soon as I arrive home and told my mother and brother the news they were comforting me and it just hit me. I felt sad and depressed-- soooo depressed. I just lie down then suddenly tears went down, my heart was aching, and i was confused. Well, it's like I just had a broken heart but somehow I kinda had my heart broken. And I also felt being a big FAILURE--again. BUT I couldn't let myself drown into these "failures", I have to stand up and face the reality. I have to move on and look at the bigger picture that some things are not meant for us and God has a bigger plan for us! (These are some lines that depressed people say to make them feel better and yeah it somehow works. )


p.s. I am getting ready for college!

_katkat_